SOME TIMES OUR LIVES LOOK BETTER IN THE RETROSPECT

I think this is the first post, that has deviated from the core and biased thoughts this blog was started with.This has taken birth from a cup of coffee and the eternal turbulence that whispered to the demons in my head to awaken.

Every one, who has a life and who are here to live a better life knows that he has to move on, or atleast get acclimatised to the fact that he should move on.But, we ,homosapiens have a strange disorder called neo-phobia.We tend to resist change and like to continue with the undisturbed and eternal inertia we are used to.I never thought that I would get attached to the world I lived in and I never thought that these pages of my life can never overwritten,hidden or erased.

I reckon the hours , I'd spent farting with my flew away fraternity and the wilderness we were in.The endless movie marathon,vels chai shop sakthi wines and the 4th wing , where we used to saunter like apes with the monkeys, they were the places of our worship, the places where we shared our joy, committed sins and laughed them away with a smoke from the inside and the sip from the outside. The life I'd spent there endowed me with a few habits, the habits i would never leave . This placed moulded us into what we're now.It's the birthplace for my academic failure, my dipsomania and the music mania, for which a few think that I should be in the asylum.

Now, I walked into the silicon jungle, the concrete coporate road with only one-way,with no one to guide but every one to expect. With the hazzle dazzles of the synthetic real world, pushing me away from the real 'I'. Every night I sleep with the hope that this real cacophony is just a dream over a bottle of whiskey and my pals would knock my room door at tapti 249 for the Infra class.

But i have to get up every morning with the same old dream , the vacant stare looking for the wilderness i miss, eternal sigh over coffee sips thinking that "GONE DAYS ARE ALWAYS THE BEST DAYS,NEVER TO COME AND FOREVER TO AWAIT AND LEFT WITH ONLY ONE SAYING ' OUR LIVES LOOK BETTER IN THE RETROSPECT' ".

I wish i were John in THE MAN FROM EARTH, for whom it is easy to move and for whom the life is eternal.Unfortunately, I'm Ajay,I'm a MORTAL, places and memories haunt me.